Live Life

There's something about this crazy life that keeps me going. I mean, with all the bullshit and nonsense that go on in life, there's still something about it that makes me wanna see tomorrow. My life ain't perfect but I still luv each day that I'm given to try to make the best of. I know there are times when people make u wanna slit your wrists and throats and just give up but then that one reason that makes ur heart fly comes to mind  letting you know that it ain't all half bad if you really sit back and look at things. Most of the time your pros out do your cons. You just gotta know how to list them correctly. You gotta stop making "mountains out of mole hills" as my Gramma would tell us. Appreciate what's in front of your face and be thankful for it. Understand how valuable the non valuable things really are. Things are usually not as bad as they seem at first. If you sit and think rationally, you can usually fix what's wrong. You just need to keep faith, motivation, dedication and commitment very close by. You're gonna need them. Without them, you will fail.

Another One

11-11-11 My birthday! Yep, another year has gone by and I'm still here. I'm blessed and I know it. I could be a million other places but I'm here. I'm fed, clothed, loved and wanted. That's all that matters to me. I'm not hard to please. I'm a simple girl. I don't need much to make me happy. It's as simple as that.

Life has led me through alotta ups, downs, turns and arounds but at the end of the day, I'm happy. I can't complain. There are plenty of things I would do different if I had the chance but I don't regret ANYTHING! I did learn a few lessons tho. No matter what happens, who you meet, trust no one. Keep ya guard up at all times. Never let them hands down. I learned that the hard way. I will always be a loving soul, open to all but I won't be fooled or led on with trickery. I don't need to be sold dreams to survive. Give it to me like it is. Truthfully. The way its supposed to be. I'm a big, strong girl. I can take it. Trust me.       

Out of it (life) so far, I've got a husband, son and family that I would die protecting. That's enough to keep me alive and happy forever. "Reasons for living". I've lived a wonderful life, made the best friends and I still gotta whole lotta life left to go on. I'm gone chase my dreams and not follow them. I've always did what I had to to take care of my family and I always will until the end of time. That's what being part of a unit is all about. It's not just about you. To those who's ever had anything worth anything to live for, you know what I mean. Bottom line. I trust what I believe in.

Reinvention

Ain't nothing wrong with change. Sometimes it's just what we need. Dealing with everyday life can become a little, "routinish", turning us into zombies for eighteen hours a day. After awhile, you forget to pay attention to the litte things that truly make you happy. Waking everyday at the same time, eating the same thing for breakfast every morning. Taking the same routes everywhere you go, never veering off course. Again and again, the same thing during the same hours everyday can drive a person into an extremely unhealthy mental state. Some people just ain't strong enough to handle it. That's when the AK's and machine guns come out. I've seen the pressures of everyday life take down the best of them.

Personally, I'd rather not totally lose my mind over things that I just have no power to control. Instead, I am focusing on the thing's that I can fix. The things that are important to my happiness and is key to my survival. I can't seep into despair because of the things that don't go right in life. Nothing is perfect so I expect things to go wrong sometimes. But I can't lose my mind when something does go wrong. It doesn't help. All it does is make things worse. You can't think. If you can't think, how will you be able to make it better? When something happens in my life that is some what mind bending, I do my best to remain calm. I try not to rush judgement. I hate to be made to look like a fool. Of course that doesn't work all the time but my effort ain't in vain. For the most part, I do pretty ok.

Our ability to deal with everyday life and change means everything. It affects our health physically and mentally. It controls how our relationships with people go. It affects our quality of life period. If you can't reinvent yourself then you might as well lay down and die. With time things change, you should to. Accordingly.